It drives me Crazy!!!

Set an alarm for me..wake up early tomolo...

OMG~~
It's midnight already...
wat am i'm doing now??
study my music..
Thursday sitting for the music examination..

Now i more prefer to listen music...
Coz more easy to recognize...
But now...
this time no listen music section...
just have to memories the history of composer..
Memories things is hard for me..
I hate it...

This few days stressful because of exam...
Today sit for the mass media and society exam people..
is panic attack me...
Scare....
Dunno this subject can get good result o not..

The most difficult subject in thursday is drive me crazy..
Hope to shout now..
but it's midnight now...
I want sleep...
but insomnia....
Is it i'm highperactive?

Haiz....

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....

Oh ya...
all my fren say me white liao..
is good o bad??
coz i'm din face the sun for 2 more weeks edi.....

原来是习惯。并不是感情变淡

不懂为什么 就是有种感觉淡了的气氛
但是却在某些时候会想起对方
也许这是交往久了 感情变淡的原理吧
但是我不会放弃
因为我知道 当有再重逢的时候 感觉会回来的

我不喜欢这样的距离
再加上最近少了联系
让我觉得 好像缺了什么
但没关系 因为我知道 你会想我的

最近都压力好大
因为要面对考试
需要人依靠的时候 唯有电话是牵系着我们的东西
但是却不能传太多的简讯

一年多了 你还是一样那么的宠着我
难道你不怕哪天我刁蛮起来 把你当出气筒？
我自己也不敢保证 会不会被你宠坏

以前都很期待见面的时候
但是现在 觉得已经麻木了
也许是想的麻木了吧
但我还是很期待 考完试可以和你过几天的日子

之前和你说过
很想和你去旅行
但是新年的旅行 却不是你开口问我要不要去
但是没关系 因为我知道 为什么你没问我

很多时候 我都在提醒自己
不要闹什么脾气
所以一直在忍着 因为怕你那天会受不了的离开我

你现在在干嘛呢？
我突然想起你了
但是却发觉最近感觉很不对
也不懂是为什么
也许是少联络了
梦里也少出现你的模样的
怎么办？

还是我们都心有灵犀了

不需要言语就懂对方想什么？

是这样的吗？

我们是爱情里的双胞胎吗？

我告诉自己
不是感情变淡
而是因为习惯
习惯了你会想我
习惯了每天的作息
习惯了每晚和你说晚安
所有与你有关的东西都习惯了
因为没有新奇的东西让我去体验
我会去习惯这种习惯

你呢？？
原来是习惯 并不是感情变淡

The End Of The Year

好啦~~
2009年就这样过去了。。。
觉得一个月好像再过一天
快到我自己也无法想象。。
考试又要到了。。
但懒惰k书。。。

算啦~~
就这样过去一个星期再读吧~~

还有几个小时
我们就两张了。。。>.<
真不想啊。。。

在这里先著年纪最老的的Ah Sua。。
生日快乐。。。虽然有点早啊！！！

今晚怎么过？？
很简单。。。
去jusco买日用品。。
然后回宿舍。。。自己在房间54321倒数。。
哈哈。。
外面很复杂。。
所以也不想出门。。。
毕竟在宿舍是最安全的。。
在外面会很危险。。。

而且。。。我讨厌人肉夹心饼。。。
哈哈哈，，

好啦。。
没什么说了。。。
在这里先说。。。
Happy New Year....

还有一个月。。
可以回家啦~~~
开心。。。
锅贴。。。等我。。。。
生肉面。。。等我。。。
云吞面。。。等我。。。
妈妈的家常菜。。。。。。等我

爱情 想念幸福

天空 藏着层层的思念

爱情 喜欢摩天轮

望着摩天轮

起点 终点

旋转了一圈 终点又回到了起点

起点又结束了另一个终点

望着摩天轮

也就是在盼望着幸福

爱情看见了

看见了坐在摩天轮上面的一个身影

他。叫幸福

幸福恋上了爱情

爱情看上了幸福

但是

爱情总是无法敞开心怀 接受这份幸福

幸福苦苦纠缠

爱情与幸福 相恋了

这段恋情距离了几千尺的遥远

虽然曾经历那几万尺的距离

但那也不是问题

因为 他们有着无形的翅膀

可日子久了 感觉深了

心沉重了 飞不起来了

爱情的情绪起起伏伏的

唯一的办法 就是让音乐填满对幸福的思念

越听越伤心 想得甜蜜 心却孤单

幸福的生活 课业占了大部分

爱情偶儿的闹情绪 幸福负担增加了

爱情知道 幸福不是不理她

而是他无法把心分散

爱情谅解了幸福 不再闹别扭

因为她知道 幸福在为未来而努力

爱情 真的很想念幸福

爱情知道 幸福还是在那旋转的摩天轮等待着她

因为 那是他们的起点 也是她们的终点

在爱情的想念之下

写了这一篇

爱情 想念幸福

这几个星期幸福的忽略

爱情的心去流浪了许多的伤心岛

但是她体会到

幸福的心 在爱情心里 跳动着

Emo~~ing

Last night was emo+ing....
Somebody not free to console me...
So miss my buddy....
Sms them....
Thx Miki...
i want gathering wif u all...

Look back the high school photo..
I damn miss u all...
Haiz...
but me at setapak hard to go find them..
Even Ah sua at here i also never meet him..
so cham duh.....

Next time should date him early...

Ok..
My music midterm is good..
Cant believe i get the mark...
Wow.....almost want fly...
I put more effort to do everything...

Phew...
still have 1 week...
then no more assignment and presentation..Good~~~
My design work let lecture keep it...
Good~~the second time....hehe...

I want back Hometown..
Soo Ting...bring me back.....



And u..
i know u no time to console me..
But nevermind..i know u bc..
Goodluck in ur coming exam o~~~

New hairstyle..New life~

I cut my hair...
eh....quite cute 1...ahahah...
But my fren said look like kangaroo...>.<

Have a new life..
Ignore the troublesome...
Ignore what people saying..
Ignore all..
Smile everyday..
Pass my time everyday..
Doing assignment everyday..

My music mid term is quite good...i think..
Coz know how to do...
The good things is...hahaha..
cant say hear..coz secret...
have other people will see this...

Assignment...
Presentation..
two presentation in a day..
English in communication.. Intro my hometown..Sabah~~
Still remember i have post bandar tawau that song b4?
Haha..i gonna show it...
Design presentation..
that teacher malay campur english..
Hmm....let u all see my works.. .

I made this advertisement...hehe....
that lousy design teacher din teach alot....
and i'm absent class that day..
canon advertisement...
good o bad leave comment pls...


Do le many time..
but got mistake do again..
but cant find back the first 1...i dun like this....

yes..the whole week i keep doing assignment..hehe
so hardworking o..
next tuesday mid term again..
a shit lecture shit tutor shit subject..
Why i say so..lecture is my tutor..teach nothing eventhough i try to catch up what she said..
Mid term..the note so....so.....thick..
Alot to study..
mid term jeh..need o not o...>.<

Gambateh in Ur coming exam too~~~

New Challenge for Me!!

this semester i take music subject...
It's fun and interesting for me...
But it is also a new things for me...
Although i have learn music ago...but now when i touch it..
I'm not really know what is note and what is them...
So...ii try to challenge myself..

I cant believe it i really try hard to learn it..
And i want to say..
Lecturer and tutor is good...

Next week was the mid term of music..
ABC 40 question..
I think can shoot it with short gun..
But i dun want to do it..
I want learn it myself.
I want try hard to know it..

However..
Music class is not easy..
I should recognize which sound was that instrument play..
What song of it...
The song....OMG....I really.....I need to say..
AMEN...
coz have church song...
Alleluia....still have more than 1 version..
Need remember who r the composer...the history...
Alleluia....when i sleep..i still can learn this song around my ears...

But it's still ok..
the harder 1 is should recognize instrument sound...
Really hard to remember..
And will do some mistake..
What is viola and cello sound?
It's look alike....

I like this sudject very much now...
Because i like to challenge....
Bless me....ok???

Midterm....
Break my Target~~~~

I'm busy

Sorry fren....i'm busy...
Miki..sorry for din reply ur email...
And...
Sorry everybody..no time to say about what happen recently...
Assignment...
Ahhh...

I lost Myself

Life like become so complicated...
Friendship complicated...
Study complicated...
Oh..I cant bear with this kind of pressure...

I dunno what people thinking about..
Eventhough i have ears, eyes, mouth, as they have..
But i dunno what their brain r thinking for..
I really cant believe anyone..
So how i survive in this kind of environment?
Isolated...this is the way how i escape from this kind of world..
I use drama to relax myself..
I listen song with my headset and do not listen any sound from outside...

People are so dramatic..
My life oso become dramatic...
Become troublesome and horror..
I'm fierce....
I'm Scared...
I dun want to face this kind of people..

Looking with them with smile..
Talking with them like a silly...
But their mind will think how i can bully you?
How i can make joke with u and i feel happy?
Gosh....Horrible....

I cant find the real me..
Don't care what they r saying about..
Don't care what they judge u..
But...some of them like take some benefit from me..
Is it means I valueable??
I dun want like tat..

Someone is disturbing me..
I hope to escape him/her..
I hope i dun so close with her..
But..I dunno how to reject..
Coz i know..they near me because of my work..
They hope to borrow...oh not..is take something from me..
But what i can give them???
I know....they close with me become some of the purpose..
I think when they get it from me i will throw in the rubbish dump...

But if i reject them they would say i selfish..
Maybe will not fren with me...
What can i do??

I escape..
I escape..
They gossiping.....

Where can i escape to?
No way...just back to my life...

Who can giv me a real hug?
who can lend me ur hand??
Who can....
who can.....
I lost myself...

One week already~~

Time...
Time...
Time really cannot buy anything...
Time really cannot back anymore..
But time..can make a relationship become harder..

YuP...
is u and me..
Eventhough that day make you angry..
But the next day we still hang out together..

Yes...
you fulfill my life..
you give me a lot of memory
you make my day brighter and brighter..

However...
the day did not see u is how sad.
one day din see...
like pass the whole season..

I miss u alot...

空闲

现在空闲得很。。
不懂时间表是怎么排的。。
中间空几个小时。。

刚刚和班的朋友上完音乐就去麦基。。
还不错。。
等下也有音乐课。。
我喜欢。。。哈哈哈。。。

这个星期过得还不错。。
因为和朋友好多了。。
原来我不需要自己开话题和他们说。。。
只要说一些垃圾就可以哈哈大笑了。。。

下下个星期要去音乐会呢。。。
外国的乐团来表演。。
期待呢。。。
但要穿得很正式，，
没办法，。。因为也是assignment的一部分。。。

啊。。。对了。。
星期二去看了医生。。
因为经痛的我不能动。。冒冷汗。。发抖。。。
没办法之下去看了医生。。。


报告完毕。。。
好想念你们哦~~~~
谢谢你们的关心哦~~

下星期一出成绩。。
不懂会考得如何呢？
紧张啊~~~

Lonely

Suddenly the Lonely feeling attack me
who can help me??
no one...

身边得朋友越来越少了
我也搞不懂是为什么
也许我没三八的天性吧
所以懂得东西也往往是最后一步

越来越孤单
甚至有人落井下石的说
“噢。。。你没有朋友了”
那是一种可悲

我不太喜欢别人干扰自己的生活
甚至也不喜欢和别人分享什么
所以我设了一道厚厚的墙

我喜欢一个人做东西
但可悲的是换来了没有朋友的孤单

没有认识很久的朋友一起聊天
一起过生活。。。
真羡慕那些都在同所学校读书的人
因为你们不会孤单。。。

我一直都不太相信身边的朋友
因为我知道下一秒所有秘密都会被说完出来
就好像你的个人资料贴在布告板上被人欣赏

那位落井下石的朋友
越来越不喜欢他了。。
但没办法。。除了他。。
没人能和我说话。。

我可怜吗？
很可怜。。
我能怎样？
没能怎样

那天听到你的电话打来。。
我就快哭出来了
因为。。。。我一个人。。。

End of the Holidays

Yoyo...It's me again....

Ok...
It's seems like not many people updated their blog..
me too..
because did not have the motivation for me to update my blog..
also dunno wat to tell to everybody..

My holiday..
is fun...tired...and happy too...
I meet my secondary school frens...
i appreciate the time.
But i didn't meet my sweet buddy..soo ting..How sad was it..
Miki, Shun and Kenny i didn't take picture wif you guys..

Seems like all came here became fat..
wat Happen with it??
I dunno too....
I say i'm fat..and goona do some exercise..but just say only,.
And my mouth keep full of food..
I know if i continued like that my brother and he will Beh Tahan..
ok...I try to behave my mouth..

Meanwhile....
in this holiday i meet his fren..
they are funny..
I love Jenna..a gal came back from Australia...
asking me to dress up myself..
She such a beautiful gal....
I'm found that I have a cancer group..
Haha...
4 people are cancer..
It's difficult to find who are same horoscope with me...
another 3 is his fren too...Funny....

Holiday have to end soon...
and i need to say bye Bye to Nilai..
How sad was it...>.<>.<

How sad was it....We are Student


The Mines

Toilet pic after sing at the worst place
Us

GoodLuck for You guys...
Muackssss...
Miss u all.....

Bless Me..

I'm free~~

Tiger xinyi still here....use my tiger smile "welcome" you all.....

Sweety...i know we gonna meet...hehehe

My com all is oldest pic...when can update the new photo wif u two??My dear buddies~~

You want to go England tiam..dunno when can have a new pic wif u?this is last year 15th Nov take de..the last photo we take leh..when can meet u???miss u~~~


Finally….
I finish the first semester..
now have my fun holiday for 2 weeks..

what am I doing now?
Haha..at somebody house..
Everyday online online online…drama drama drama..
No choice…
Because here is san ka la place…
But it peace oso…I like…

First semester my feeling is full of anger…nervous…worry..
Errr…
Can say is a worst semester la….
But oso have happy moment la…
But I prefer to live alone..
Have people say me solitude..
But I dun care…coz it’s my life..
And I’m not didn’t talk wif people lo…
Hehe…
Finally……I have 2 weeks for me leave alone from the noisy place..
Akakkaka….

My baba and mama was argued..
Because want me back tawau…
But suddenly ask me to back tawau…
Haven prepare leh…and ticket expensive 1..
Haha…but nvm…coz I know baba n mama sayang me…..
Muacks..
I miss baba n mama….n mama de wan tan mee…baba de abc soup…
Yummy…
Oh Gosh~~hungry~~

At here already 3 days le…but y so fast 1??
Hmmm….
Dunno how my brother…
Coz my brother alone at hostel…
Hostel no ppl already..all back hometown..
Dunno my bro will talk wif who…
Nvm….i got send him message 1…kakakaka…
I’m such a good sister mah……

Oh…k lah…..
Supper~~
Miss baba mama de food make me hungry…..
Yummy….muacks…

Gonna meet ray, xia, shun, miki, Kenny…hope can meet my dear soo ting too lah…
Miss u all…muakcs…
Miss S3 frens…muacks…..

其实我也是女生

其实我也是个女生
我实实在在是个女生

可是我没有叼人的脾气
因为我懂其实不应该

可是我没有一秒就会掉眼泪的能力
因为眼泪好像不是必要的武器

可是我没有魔鬼的身材
因为身材并不一定得到真爱

可是我没有嗲嗲的声音
因为声音并不能夺走别人的心

可是。。。
可是。。。

有时候都觉得为什么我没有这样的脾气
为什么我没有动不动就骂人的脾气
为什么我没有率直的个性

当我没东西吃的时候我才会生气
当我觉得烦躁时才会发发牢骚

我。。。
真的是女生吗？

我内心是

我爱吃醋。。
但我知道吃醋偶尔会带来麻烦

我会生气
气的眼泪都掉了出来也不说一声

我会觉得讨厌
但是为了气氛我不会去捣乱

我。。。。

我可以告诉你其实我很生气吗？
虽然那是很久很久的事了。。。
但是我还是耿耿于怀

我可以告诉你其实我气得哭了好几次吗？
因为我都想不通为什么

我可以告诉你我很介意吗？
因为我真的没那么大方

要告诉你吗？？？？

其实。。。
在我生气时不要觉得我烦。。
我发牢骚好不要觉得我讨厌

因为
我也是女生