Stereotype

Yes
I admit that i have stereotype on someone
I trying to change my mind to accept it
I trying to accept the things she done before
But
i so confused in....which one was the real her??

I ask myself
why i become so evil??
Why i can't be the good person???
I should care about what she did before??
Should i forget the things she done??

Frankly, it's not a big things or issue that she did..
I can admit that..
Yes, i am the person that narrowness
I just can't forget

I confused...
because everyone is accepted her
everyone is friend wif her
Even is.....

But i just cannot forgive...
actually
i could not angry on her..
because not her fault
But i just care...
I just.....

It's killing me for a long time..
everytime i try to accept her and get closed to her
But my mind still have the stereotype on her..

Am i an evil??
Or an angel??

I hope to be an angel..
But..
Evil like easily to be
I just can't destroy the evil in my heart...in my mind

R u an angel???
yes....maybe you're

If i have a second chance to know you
i will not close with you
then i would not know alot of things that u say behind me

Today i learn
Stereotype can be more serious..
I scare...
I scare it become to prejudice..

But everytime i told myself...
Smile wif you...
talk wif you..
Yes..i did...
but..when i think of it...I angry about u...I hate you...

Girl...
You r a big girl..
Everything is over...
and everything still around you..
she never take anything from you..
Even is.....

Girl...
appreciate...
and remember it...
The bad things will be gone...
and it will be the lesson for you
and just give her a chance and urself..
To accept her

Good Girl..
dun be a kid...
It's will be happy if ur heart do not have any stereotype

My heart..
i need a chance to cry...
cry all the bad things..
Let's the tears drop down and be the pass flowing to the sea
then u never and ever will remember it

Girl....cry...u could do it..
Angel should fly away and give people comfort..
I want to the angel.
Comfort everyone who surrounding me♥

Is me!!

I'm here again...
line was not good...loading long time just can type my blog..
Last night yam cha wif fren..
Then i'm empty stomach drink Teh o panas..
Mana tahu cirit birit wa...
Now is ok edi..
I miss somebody....

I miss 18th
I miss the moment
I miss the sea
I miss tawau.....

我的成绩

报告报告！！！
上个学期的成绩前天出炉啦~·
我很满意。。。。
没看到一个减。。。
五科没看到一科是猫。。。
三粒苹果和两个男生甲。。。
妈妈很满意。。。
CGPA比第一个学期多了0.5.。。
听讲ptptn cgpa总分超过3.5以后不需还政府。。
第一格学期才拿3.35.。。这个学期拿3.7.。
看来我选对科目啦~~
因为对自己有兴趣的事。。
每样都付出~~
我做到啦~~~~~
好开心~~~
哈哈！！
这个学期。。再接再厉~~

偶尔也来一下

有好几个世纪了
没有好好利用部落格
来抒发一下每天的心情

今天 想来一下

最近总是喜欢戴着耳机
把音乐开到尽头
好像要把耳膜给震破一样
对 这就是所谓的享受

听着抒情歌
我的爱人
最幸福的事
让我想了好多一大堆的感触
往我的脑袋冲

那种感觉 就好像不顾一切的往大海跑
跑得多远有多远
好像幸福其实离自己好远 要抓紧时间去把握它
但是我不需要跑因为 幸福离我不远

听着快歌
Jesse McCartney 的leavin'
里面有一句我很喜欢
Girl u deserve nothing but the best
重复又重复
每个女孩都有权利选择最好的
没错 但选择总该要三思
不要鲁莽的选择
在我生命中
出现的人很多
路人甲乙丙丁。。。。。
有些我甚至不知道名字
就只有模糊的模样

其实一个人也许是自由的
但两个人的世界是共同拥有 总是大过天
可以扶手走过乱流 就算距离多远 在心中都是永久的

透明的外壳 被看穿了
坚固与脆弱 也不必再隐瞒了
只要去保护 只要去体谅
就不必去顾虑那么多
其实 爱真的很简单 只要你相信
一个人的旅行也很好
因为生命之旅 在很多个角落都留下了痕迹
只要你记得 生活还是一样的精彩
也许可以领悟到 生活的真谛

无论是一个人两个人
只要觉得生活美好就是好的
天空那么的宽 回忆再到带
只要你懂 其实会感觉到释怀
一点也不孤单
我呢？？
记得我写过海洋中的女孩的故事
看回去 其实那些回忆在我记忆中
其实是浪漫的
一点也不孤单
有了伤心 才会体会如何寻找快乐

那我快乐嘛？？
我会点点头 笑 笑的说
我快乐 因为身边的人快乐
因为所有人都到齐了 没一个是缺席的
我的生活 就好像一幅鱼儿水中游一样

我想大声说
虽然有时生活是沉闷 因为自己总是喜欢享受没人打扰的生活
但是 我 快乐
我喜欢身边每个人事物

所以

我依然是骄傲的公主
享受自由 享受约束

I'm Just Nothing!

I'm starting my last semester in the first year..
After back from hometown i have change my destination..
I do not continue to study advance diploma after graduate Diploma..
Because i change to back Tawau to find career..
so wat i need to study?
I believe that experience is important than what we study..
And what we study is not related wif what we work in the future...

It is a boring semester..
My mum was complaining me of the phone bil is too expensive..
so i have to control myself..
But...
But...

Today....i almost Ki siao..
because i dun have laptop...
My bro was take it to do his assignment..
So what can i do in room??
Sleep...eat...study...
Roomate was outing..
bro was outing..
friend was back to hometown..
Left me..
How cruel is it??
Look at my phone..
Who can i call without wasting money??
I dunno...
Found That..I'm just nothing...

I study already..
but after study what i need to do???
luckily my roomate borrow me her laptop...
But..i still sien...i want to out..
but where can i go??
Money is impermanency..

This sem is so free...
actually i can find a part time job..
But i need a job which is near my hostel..not be late home..
but how can i found it?

Who want to meet up??
i was free on Friday..Sat and Sun...
i want bang myself to the wall edi..
No laptop life is harsh life...

AHhhh..................................................................

I want Ki siao la~~~~~~

Soo Ting...i miss you~~
Mui Kuen...I miss You...
Miki....I miss you~~~
Shun Shun...i Miss you~~
Chuan...i Miss you~~
Raymond....I miss you~~
Joan...I miss you~~
Tkk,....I miss you~~

Chang Shin Bun.....I miss you too~~~~~>.<>.<....

今天受刺激了！！！

话说。。。
今天是家庭聚会。。
亲戚吃饭呢~

早上10点就出发咯~~
去到一间很豪华的公寓。。。
本来不会早去的。。
但是他们说要赌博~~
等等下哦。。
去到只玩Wii...
很好玩一下。。

然后哦。。。
我的表嫂说哦。。
要走了。。。去吃午餐。。
叫我和我弟弟做同一家车。。
我就大声说。。
他是我哥哥。。好~~~我不怪他。。
但这是刺激一~~
因为我哥不高。。。又有婴儿脸。。
所以以为他是我弟弟。。
但这表示。。。
我看起来比较老。。
耿耿于怀的。。。

刺激二！！
大家聊聊下。。
我表哥说要找我表姐。。。
结果他女朋友指着我。。问是不是找我。。。
我又大声说~~~
我是他表妹~~~
我们同年的。。。你没看清楚吗。。
介绍的时候也说我是表妹。。。
我心里de OS这样说着。。
由于本人没什么喜欢这女的。。
所以听他这样讲我就更不爽他~~
我又很成熟吗？？？
虽然你18岁看起来像15岁。。。但是你的个性比我还老咯~~
在这里对他的不满发泄发泄。。
因为跟她不是很熟。。。他讲话也对我们太直接咯~~
小妹妹。。。我们都是长辈哦~~放尊重点！！！

刺激三！！！
堂姐送我和我哥回家。。。
我的表外甥说我弟弟。。我弟弟的。。
我就说。。我是妹妹。。。他是哥哥。。
他不相信。。由于他6岁。。
他听到别人这样说所以也就以为是这样。。。后来解释了他才说。。。
哦。。。原来你是妹妹。。
童言无忌~~我不怪你~~

要减肥！！！ 要睡美容觉~~~ 要保养~~
不然。。。。会老化~~

姐姐我还很可爱哦~~
【怎么说还是不认老！！别说我老~！！！】

要回去了!!~~哇mm买~~

星期四就要回KL了哦~~
很不舍得哦。。。

然后呢。。
哥哥说她毕业了要回都湖做工哦。。。

我哦。。
就开始胡思乱想什么的。。
我出了名体弱多病。。。
没有哥哥谁看着我呢？？
我怕怕哦。。。
虽然是时候要学会独立~~

然后哦。。
我就像很多咯。。
每天要吃食堂的馊水。。。
没人陪我走路出去吃哦。。
很可悲的了~~
也很少会和朋友吃。。。
然后哦。。。。可能房友三天没回来一次
我要和谁说话？？？

我想到了。。
我要养壁虎。。
央到壁虎大大只。。
还要会说壁虎话。。。
晚上和他们说晚安。。。
然后早上起床他们乖乖躺在我床上盖着被睡觉。。。
瓦。。。。既可爱一下~~~~

哇mm买啦~~~~~~~
救命咯~~~~

我不要离开斗湖~~！！！妈妈

It's still got 1 week

Yes..
what i'm waiting for?
Next Sunday was a big day for us..
It's Chinese New year~~
And Valentine day...
I was excited to wait for it..
for wat???
I dunno also...
I am the person who like chinese new year much..
I dun like gambling..
But i like go visit fren house and eat eat eat...
The words i say..
去人家家。。把东西吃完是一种尊重
Hmmmm....
That's right..hahahaha,...
But i know...somebody wont let me eat alot...
coz....coz will fat o...

AAAHHHHH....
now struggling wat to buy for valentine present..
Never give my love present..
this was the first time..
wat to give??
I'm poor...no income...dunno can buy wat..

Haizzzz........
Oh......
So happy wif the day...
Lets celebrate together~~~~~

One weeks~~

Yes...one weeks i will back to Tawau..
My sweet hometown...
Miss my parents alot...
miss the food alot..

So where i'm having my 1 week holiday??
the venue that i haave been is Nilai..
Sure is ah bun house...

Today have a nice dinner wif my ABC soup..
it's yummy....

Wat am i doing now?
blogging..
where is he now?
on the bed..

He keep playing my bro's psp..
i keep playing the Icy tower..
Jump Jump Jump~~~

ok....seems like the situation is change..
I dunno why..
Feel like.....normal..
nothing special..
dun want do anything...
Just like normal..
what happen on me??

I dunno..maybe it's become a habit????
hmmm...i not really know....

Is it time will make love stronger??
Or is it time make love become lesser and lesser?

I dunno...i don't want to imagine the situation now..
Just let it be..
because i know..
i cant leave him...
I love him...
i miss him...

Just maybe now we become like husband and wife..
married for many years...

OPpsss...sorry..
my title is not related wif what i'm typing now..

Just i want to say...
I wont give up anything....

I scare when he read my blog will become how...
but i know..
I cant hide anything....wif him.....

It's Romantic?

Today was my first day summer vacation

The first thing i do is take drama from my floormate..

she is movie supplier..also is my senior

While...they asking me something about me and my bf

First..I told them he is study master now

They look so envy

Then ask me how old is he

then they say bigger than me 5 years..

How we knew each other?

He is teacher

I am student

They shocked: WAA~~~~then then then?

Then i knew he had feeling with me

They still shocked: WAA~~then he had treat u different?

They looked curiosity

I told them..

Nope...Coz he treat all of his student like a friend.

So, treat me also 1 of his fren..

They asked: But he alot of student, why will fall in love with u??is it u two very close?

Then i said, nope

I treat him as a fren too...

But i keep a distance wif him

They envy: WAA~~~so romantic

Why the people who listen my love story will say romantic?

Their reason is because teacher and student love story just will appeared in anime world

I ask: Is it???

i think is myself cant feel the romance

Then they ask how he chase..

I say no wat...just like normal..

Then they say he really is a patient people..

chase a girl for a long time never give up

I said: Nope...he have think to give up..

But at last...i accepted him

Until now...

Till now...i feel so regret why i hurt him many times when he chase me for many times

But i find any excuse to console myself..

The reason is...he is teacher..i am student....like that will get punishment

Yes...i told myself this reason

But the luckiest things is...

He never give up

Till now...

But i curious

I curious why u will choose me..

Why u will look up to me

Why and why and why~~

IS it my story romantic?

Yes....now i feel the romance of my love story..

Now i feel the romance of him

It drives me Crazy!!!

Set an alarm for me..wake up early tomolo...

OMG~~
It's midnight already...
wat am i'm doing now??
study my music..
Thursday sitting for the music examination..

Now i more prefer to listen music...
Coz more easy to recognize...
But now...
this time no listen music section...
just have to memories the history of composer..
Memories things is hard for me..
I hate it...

This few days stressful because of exam...
Today sit for the mass media and society exam people..
is panic attack me...
Scare....
Dunno this subject can get good result o not..

The most difficult subject in thursday is drive me crazy..
Hope to shout now..
but it's midnight now...
I want sleep...
but insomnia....
Is it i'm highperactive?

Haiz....

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....

Oh ya...
all my fren say me white liao..
is good o bad??
coz i'm din face the sun for 2 more weeks edi.....

原来是习惯。并不是感情变淡

不懂为什么 就是有种感觉淡了的气氛
但是却在某些时候会想起对方
也许这是交往久了 感情变淡的原理吧
但是我不会放弃
因为我知道 当有再重逢的时候 感觉会回来的

我不喜欢这样的距离
再加上最近少了联系
让我觉得 好像缺了什么
但没关系 因为我知道 你会想我的

最近都压力好大
因为要面对考试
需要人依靠的时候 唯有电话是牵系着我们的东西
但是却不能传太多的简讯

一年多了 你还是一样那么的宠着我
难道你不怕哪天我刁蛮起来 把你当出气筒？
我自己也不敢保证 会不会被你宠坏

以前都很期待见面的时候
但是现在 觉得已经麻木了
也许是想的麻木了吧
但我还是很期待 考完试可以和你过几天的日子

之前和你说过
很想和你去旅行
但是新年的旅行 却不是你开口问我要不要去
但是没关系 因为我知道 为什么你没问我

很多时候 我都在提醒自己
不要闹什么脾气
所以一直在忍着 因为怕你那天会受不了的离开我

你现在在干嘛呢？
我突然想起你了
但是却发觉最近感觉很不对
也不懂是为什么
也许是少联络了
梦里也少出现你的模样的
怎么办？

还是我们都心有灵犀了

不需要言语就懂对方想什么？

是这样的吗？

我们是爱情里的双胞胎吗？

我告诉自己
不是感情变淡
而是因为习惯
习惯了你会想我
习惯了每天的作息
习惯了每晚和你说晚安
所有与你有关的东西都习惯了
因为没有新奇的东西让我去体验
我会去习惯这种习惯

你呢？？
原来是习惯 并不是感情变淡

The End Of The Year

好啦~~
2009年就这样过去了。。。
觉得一个月好像再过一天
快到我自己也无法想象。。
考试又要到了。。
但懒惰k书。。。

算啦~~
就这样过去一个星期再读吧~~

还有几个小时
我们就两张了。。。>.<
真不想啊。。。

在这里先著年纪最老的的Ah Sua。。
生日快乐。。。虽然有点早啊！！！

今晚怎么过？？
很简单。。。
去jusco买日用品。。
然后回宿舍。。。自己在房间54321倒数。。
哈哈。。
外面很复杂。。
所以也不想出门。。。
毕竟在宿舍是最安全的。。
在外面会很危险。。。

而且。。。我讨厌人肉夹心饼。。。
哈哈哈，，

好啦。。
没什么说了。。。
在这里先说。。。
Happy New Year....

还有一个月。。
可以回家啦~~~
开心。。。
锅贴。。。等我。。。。
生肉面。。。等我。。。
云吞面。。。等我。。。
妈妈的家常菜。。。。。。等我

爱情 想念幸福

天空 藏着层层的思念

爱情 喜欢摩天轮

望着摩天轮

起点 终点

旋转了一圈 终点又回到了起点

起点又结束了另一个终点

望着摩天轮

也就是在盼望着幸福

爱情看见了

看见了坐在摩天轮上面的一个身影

他。叫幸福

幸福恋上了爱情

爱情看上了幸福

但是

爱情总是无法敞开心怀 接受这份幸福

幸福苦苦纠缠

爱情与幸福 相恋了

这段恋情距离了几千尺的遥远

虽然曾经历那几万尺的距离

但那也不是问题

因为 他们有着无形的翅膀

可日子久了 感觉深了

心沉重了 飞不起来了

爱情的情绪起起伏伏的

唯一的办法 就是让音乐填满对幸福的思念

越听越伤心 想得甜蜜 心却孤单

幸福的生活 课业占了大部分

爱情偶儿的闹情绪 幸福负担增加了

爱情知道 幸福不是不理她

而是他无法把心分散

爱情谅解了幸福 不再闹别扭

因为她知道 幸福在为未来而努力

爱情 真的很想念幸福

爱情知道 幸福还是在那旋转的摩天轮等待着她

因为 那是他们的起点 也是她们的终点

在爱情的想念之下

写了这一篇

爱情 想念幸福

这几个星期幸福的忽略

爱情的心去流浪了许多的伤心岛

但是她体会到

幸福的心 在爱情心里 跳动着

Emo~~ing

Last night was emo+ing....
Somebody not free to console me...
So miss my buddy....
Sms them....
Thx Miki...
i want gathering wif u all...

Look back the high school photo..
I damn miss u all...
Haiz...
but me at setapak hard to go find them..
Even Ah sua at here i also never meet him..
so cham duh.....

Next time should date him early...

Ok..
My music midterm is good..
Cant believe i get the mark...
Wow.....almost want fly...
I put more effort to do everything...

Phew...
still have 1 week...
then no more assignment and presentation..Good~~~
My design work let lecture keep it...
Good~~the second time....hehe...

I want back Hometown..
Soo Ting...bring me back.....



And u..
i know u no time to console me..
But nevermind..i know u bc..
Goodluck in ur coming exam o~~~